Wednesday, September 30, 2009

One night's Dream

There was a barn with a red roof near the brook.
The barn door was chained, and several cows laid down on the grass.
An ark was carried down the brook smoothly.

Two women came out of the ark, and they opened a tight door slowly.
Suddenly, the cows stood up, and a small dog outside started growling.

When they passed the curved hallway, they shouted with joy.
There were oil, soy source, and a lot of dishes inside the barn.
It thrilled them, but they checked if somebody was there.

One woman talked to her friend about the throne of mighty Lord
while they broiled corn and trout.
At that time, a chalk was thrown toward Joses and I.
But, the chalk swerved from us. We woke up. It was a dream.

Our composition skill is worse than ever.
We need to grow and stand firm in using English.
Thank you.:D


The 500 Most frequently used English words: 84times

Monday, September 21, 2009

Obeying vs sacrifices

The shape of Kagman church's bible study was different whenever I went to there.:D
Someday was prayer meeting, another was bible study with youth, the other was out reach. Do you know what I did in last week? It was opportunity to share my Gospel and God's vision! How amazing is our God's plan and guidance.

As a matter of fact, the church locate on the outskirts of a town, it is small, and there was very few people in every meeting. Nevertheless, I did not be disappointed with the fact. I was very pleased, I also was exciting because I had a belief that He is leading me!

On last week, the church leader suggested me about sharing something that I want.
I might not be share if I did not have 'the Belif.'
I shared my Gospel without hesitating; it makes me disobey God, let me pursue pleasure and comfortable life.

I could not explain my Gospel exactly; for example, I wanted say to them, 'I sinned.', but I said like this, 'I did sin.' But, I do not ashamed of my fault.
Except this, I could not tell about that I really wanted tell them.
It seemed that I share my Gospel and God's vision for one hour.:D
They encouraged me several words, and the time satisfied me.
I am very happy whenever God receive the glory from me.

I do not know how God works forward to this church and the people of Kagman, during a couple of months. But as God has done, am doing until now, He will do His work.
I hope to see His glory through the Kagman and the people.

But Samuel replied: "Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams. (1Samuel 15:22)

Sunday, September 20, 2009

True reason that I am here

What am I doing on Saipan?...Learning English?
To exercise phonics?
Having a Relationship with people who live in this place?
If not, serving members of our team? Why am I here in very important these time?

It is true that the reason I am here is not because of those reason.
It's really true!

If so, for what reason?

I am here because God led me, and gave the task of learning English in order to achieve His final goal. Onething that I know is not only learning English but also preparing 'the Gospel'and 'the prayer.'
Namely, God gave me the time to prepare as a 'witness' for the completion of mission.

Honestly speaking, during last six month, I have had a firm belief that I must learn English above all. Therefore, I missed lots of good oppotunity to learn not about English but about to stand firmly as a witness.

After I realized my fault about the reason that I have been sent, I decided to focus on the Lord's will: What does Jesus want to me? What does God want me to do?
What should I do during my stay here?
It is relate with my calling: The calling of WMM is the serving and the unity for the revival of God's kingdom and the completion of Great commission.

I have called as a witness for the people and the church that need to revive.
It is hard job; it needs great cost: time, my future, marriage, family, and my own one life. Besides, the world is going to exclude me, insult me and maybe kill me.

Necessarily, if I do not prepare the Gospel and the Prayer, I am going to be shamed before the world.
I will obey God not only today but until the last day; at least during six months!
I really want God to say about my obeying, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!'

Eventhough I am not going to gain nothing, if I hear from my beloved God, I will enough. Yes, Lord! I am enough!


p.s: To learn English hardly is given to me by God. It also is true! I don't forget! ~:D

Thursday, September 17, 2009

The plans God has for me

What plans does God have for me?


Every tuesday, I attend the bible study at the church of Kagman.
Whenever I go there, God allowed different situations: first time, we just prayed for many prayer requestes; on second week, we prayed for the vilige and families with walking together; on last week, and then, I could meet some teenagers in bible study meeting. During I came that place, I was familier with not only the church members but the street that is from my house to the Kagman.

I expect, and also I know that this time is from not somebody but God. So, I obey His word if I don't understand why he send me there. But, it is clear that the reason that He led me there.

After the bible stduy finished, the leader asked me what I have something to tell. As a matter of fact, I do everything without hesitation about some opportunities that God showed me. I told my thought about 'self-control' that was the topic of the bible study. I thank to God who saved me from satan and sin, therefore I can self-control in Christ. Before I met the Lord of cross, I sined in every situations without self-control; because I was a sinner and I was a sin.

It was impossible to self-control with only my will and efforts.(Unfortunately, how many people try to do about self-control without the cross!..It is self-confidence, and also is a Buddhist invocation.) But now, I can do every good acts and self-control in Christ who save from sin.

I felt that the time what I return to my house is short. The time that God gaves me is valuable, and it is changing me; although I can not recognize.
God has done, is doing and will do in every His time and places that He leads. Amen!


For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah29:11)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I am ready..

I was sick last week because I tend to take not a rest before I lose my energy. During forty days, I concentrated many things that I had to do as a leader of WSA team. I decided to take not a nap every afternoon, and I was concerned about members. God gave me his love which is not self-seeking, I could not help serving them and God's tasks.

I had a great happiest time to serve God through this time, and it gave me the joy. I eagerly did my homework, many roles, and I prayed better than last six months with wholeheartedly. God answered me, He showed me His faithfulness through the answers. He alives! He is my father who answer me, show to me and first of all, loves me.

I did not know about tiring until I had been sick.
I was sick in bed for three days. It was painful better than I thought.
During I was in bed, I thought about martyrdom.
I can not explain exactly that thinking in English.
The best important thing what I think about martyrdom is that I can see my Lord after I died! It is amazing and wonderful thing!

I hope to see Jesus with all the nations on the last day, however anyone knows the day of Jesus' coming.
Every holy saints are praying for the day, and we will see Him whom will come from heaven.
Secondly, on the day of my death, I will see Him! Seeing the Lord faster than what I think, is incredible!

I almost recoverd my health, and I awoke.:D
After I awoke, I had to think what I should to do that as a man who lives on the earth.:<

I love my life that God gave me, and I will show faithful to God through my life that I am living continually until He comes.
If I live or die, I will live for God. I belong to God who gave his only son to me.

Someone's confess gave an impression.
"I am ready to die for Christ."...It is like an apostle paul said.
I also confess my lovely Jesus with sincerely.


I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. (Philippians 1:20-21)

Sunday, September 6, 2009

God works in his will(on the Kagman..)

God works whenever, and wherever!


When I arrived at the church in order to take part in the bible study meeting, two husband and wife who I saw last week was just about to open the door of church. Although there was nobody when I came last week, I thanks to God and pray for somethings.

The fact that some people was there before I arrived, is enough to let me had a special expectation.
The time was already at 7PM, but people did not come anymore. They was about to call somebody, but they didn't answer the phone.

What does God can do in these situations? What does he want to us like today that rain in torrents?:D
We decided to pray with walking around the street; what a wonderful God's plan!
God our father planed not the bible study meeting but prayer time for the Kagman people with walking.

He always have the great plan better than I have; he always give me the best thing better than I want, and know.
He is creator of whole universe and the earth, he works everything as he wants. There is no abstacle to interrupt him all of the world; eventhough king of the kings.

We had visited a couple of families, and they prayed for the families's some needs. The time that I prayed with walking at the Kagman, is will be my first unforgetable experience.
Before I came to my house, the husband and wife asked me to pray for the land and the people. I could pray for them, without hesitated, I began to pray in His pouring heart. God gave me the prayer requests, and let me pray, and let me trust in Him. I believe the plan that God has planed will be accomplished in His time.

I just do my job, and obey God day by day.
Because I prayed, he will do his work; because of my obedience, God will let me know him.

Thank you Lord for giving me the great time to see your work for your people and land, also me. I will obey without selfishness in order to show your marvelous presence in my place that I am being.

"Abba, Father," he said, "everything is possible for you. Take this cup from me. Yet not what I will, but what you will." (Mark14:36)

I eagerly expect and hope

Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (Matt.6:33)


Last week was very important not only us but every WMM missionies in Korea and also USA.
There was the good news school for one week, it looked so hard to progress favorably because there were a lot of participant people; not enough restrooms, bedrooms, besides the water to drink for about eight hundred people.

I supposed about many problems, and I prayed with whole heartedly as much as possible; especially, I prayed everyday, everytime at the morning prayer time of church.
As I prayed to God, I gained the strength and great joy from God. My heart was filled with great expectation and pleasure, I really hoped that the people obtained the freedom through the gospel. I trust in God, and I expect that God has done his work. Amen!~

We also had the first week of learning English with Ms.Judy. There were some circumstances that God gave us, I made up our mind to focus on Jesus.
I pray for the WSA, our missionaries who called from only God, and loving Ms.Judy.
I rely on my heavenly father who knows what we need, what the good is, and the road we should to walk.

I called as a witness of the cross before I had called as a world mobile missionary. I am a 32years old this year. Whew! I have already lived a lot like this!
The one thing that I think is I am not a 5-year-old baby but 32-year-old christian, witness, and missionary. So, I really want to live for God and people without shame.
I called from Heaven not anyone who live on the earth.

Lord, you know my heart, my way, and I can glorify you through my life and death.
I hope see your glory, and the day of glory!


I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. (Philippians1:20-21)